iTunes

some mornings, like this one, where I have nothing to do I put itunes on shuffle and let it play. I pick the first song and let it ride... some days its all the crappy music I don't want to hear but other days its amazing! its all the right songs at the right songs, the perfect mix of older "memory lane" songs and new fun songs, slow songs, fast songs, country and pop. AHHH BLISS

TODAY WAS A GOOD iTUNES DAY! So i'm gunna let it ride some more... and listen to the healing music and hopefully feel better.

Happy Birthday Grandma!

Today is my Nana's 87th Birthday. My grandma is one of the most special people to me. She helped to raise me and I have lived with her since I was 5. She read to me as I ate my breakfast, put my hair in the perfect ponytail, drove me to school and picked me up all through elementary school. In afternoons we would go for picnics in Central park on our Goose Table Cloth on "the island" and we would go leaf crunching in the fall on our walk to "my" park (which all the cousins called their park, but I'm the baby so it officially belongs to me!)

My grandma has raised 4 children, one who is severly handicapped, has taught sunday school forever,  is a widow, a Great Depression and WWII Survivor. She worked and put dinner on the table daily, followed her husband of 50 years all over the world, and got to live in cool places like Japan, Texas and Hawaii. She also has supported all of us through thick and thin, and rolls with the punches (like me bringing home a puppy!) Everyone loves her, people wish she was their Grand-ma but she's mine!! :)

To me she is a great source of inspiration and perseverance. On Mother's Day 10 years ago my grandma almost lost her life. She was involved in a car accident in West Virginia and was hit directly on her side of the vehicle. She suffered massive injuries and we all thought this was the end. Almost the whole family rushed out there to be by her side and say good-bye because we were told that she may not live through the night. But Grandma pulled through. She re-learned how to walk and use her arm. She fought through shitty, abusive nurses and new meds.

Nearly 8 years later my grandma fell and broke her hip. I was the only one home. I remember hearing her yell for help and thanking God that I was there for her. After undergoing surgery she learned how to walk...again. She came through that like a champ (once the stupid Doctors fixed her meds and stopped ODing her on seizure meds.)

Today my grandma is as healthy as you can expect for a normal 87 year old woman who grew up in the time when cigarettes were cool and Vodka Martinis were a daily indulgence.

I think one of the best things about my Grandma is her unconditional love... no matter how badly you screwed up she will give you a hug and a kiss, tell you it will be ok and help you pick yourself off the ground.

So here's to you grandma, I raise my oversized coffee cup to you, I know you won't live another 87 years but I know you have a few more in you! I love you more than words can say. I'll never be able to express my gratitude towards you. When I grow up I hope I can be the same kind of pillar of strength for my family that you have been for ours. It would be an honor to be anywhere close to you!  We all love you.  I'll see you this weekend!

Murder by Thorasic

No this isn't a post about Jurassic Park (sadly) although I should watch it and blog about the awesomeness of Jurassic Park... becasue it is awesome... I digress

I am being murdered... NOT EXAGGERATING!!! (LOL)

My back is killing my and quite slowly I may add... for like 2 weeks now I have been having HORRIBLE back pain.. I've tried stretching, walking, icing, more icing, heat and icing every 20 minutes, laying on the floor and crying, laying on my bed and crying, sitting on the couch and crying... it got so bad today that I couldn't sit in those horrible desks at school and had to excuse myself from class...

I am considering breaking down and taking a vicodin (ooh haven't blogged that story either... I will get to it sometime today) just for some relief but I'm holding out... If I can make it 48 more hours I can go see my wonderful chiropractor... it may be time for a full hour long work up not the normal crack and go...

Ok time to switch positions as I have been doing every few minutes once the pain becomes close to intolerable....

This sucks...

Festivals....

That I plan to attend

-Stockton Asparagus Festival- April
- Gilroy Garlic Festival- July
- Oktober Fest- October
- Morgan Hill Mushroom Mardi Gras
- Artichoke Festival in Castroville
- Woody's on the Warf
- San Jose Races
- Hot August Nights in Reno
- Hot Air Balloon Festival in Ripon


That's just my preliminary List... and not counting my goal to go to al least 10 CA fairs not counting State Fair...

Sounds like fun!

YAY!!

Kids

Ok I broached on the subject that I know many of you know I care a lot about....

Kids... Children... Off-spring.. whatever you want to call em I Love em and know I am GOING to have kids...

Now there are somethings I need to lay out before you think I want to become the next crazy mom - like the pictures shown... that isn't my plan.... But I do want a larger family by todays standards... I would love to have upwards of 5 kids... I know shocking! Ok so I will touch quickly on my problems with the three families pictured below...

1. The Duggars... I think their premise is ok but the execution and the false things they have spewed are disheartening... Taking Birth Control is responsible not a reason for miscarriage.  I also don't have a problem with the amount but their kids are not exposed enough, in  my opinion, to the real world and they slightly resemble their own occult.

2/ Jon and Kate Gosslin- I LOVE their story... they successfully had a family that they so wanted. That I don't have a problem with... I just think their dad is an ass hole and Kate is too controlling... So I guess they are an image of what I hope doesn't happen to my relationship... It is sad and I feel really really bad for the kids...

3. octoMom! She just pisses me off... 8 kids in one pregnancy and all the other things that everybody knows about her... ugh... NO THANKS!! I PROMISE I WILL NEVER BECOME HER!! She's Psycho!!

There are a few reasons for this... I think that being an only child has encouraged me to want a larger family... I know people who are only children who don't want kids at all... but I don't think my life will be complete without kids...

I have always loved children... I remember holding little Rachel when she was a baby and it was sooo cool!! I also remember my first babysitting job and loving watching little Sarah (my nextdoor neighbor's kid) sleep...

I also have some fears when having kids... I am pretty sure I will not be a failure because I had a great example in my mom.

She raised me without a second parent. Yes she had WONDERFUL help from people like my Grand Parents and Aunts and Family but a lot of it you have to do alone.

My mom raised me to be a strong, independent, self-sufficient woman who can stand on her own two feet most of  the time and can pick herself up when I get knocked down.

I don't know if its just my baby internal instinct or if all women do this but I find myself looking at other women who have kids and thinking to myself what I would do differently if that were my kid... I do it at work as well...
Some things I have noted are-
-my baby needs a hat in the wintertime (thanks mom)
-babies need to be socialized... having them stay at home with mom ALL day EVERY day makes them a pain in the ass for care takers... like us poor girls at MOPS (Mothers of Pre-Schoolers)

There are more but my brian has ceased to function... so...

While I am not ready for the pitter Patter of little feet yet when that day comes I know I'll be ok... I will hopefully have the love of an amazing man who will support me in raising a child, or 5 or 6. I will also have my mom there.. guaranteed! She is my rock and I hope I can be as good of a mom as she was!

Request from Elise!!

Ok so Elise begged for a post so I am posting.. I had to think about what to blog about since nothing is jumping out at me! HAHA...

So then I decided... I am going to my blog about my new toy...

MY SNUGGIE!!!!

I am currently sitting on my couch wearing my sunggie! Seee!!!
Soo comfy...

I opted for the fashionable NEW leopard print versus the blue or HOT PINK...

I'm not gunna lie it is actually quite comfy and long enough for my  6ft frame... ok the suggie commercial just came on and I will tell you places that my snuggie will NOT be worn...

• The Mall
• The Movies
• ANY sporting Event
• Camping
• In my car
• Anywhere other than my couch... 

Ok so I am also doing two other things presently... Listening to the INTENSE wind outside and watching the little couple... its soo cute... and I'm sure they'll get tired of hearing that but they are an inspiring couple and their marathon is on TLC... ooooh and KATE from Jon and Kate plus 8 is doing a 1 on 1 interview monday... I WILL be tuning in...

OK so I also have two new addictions on FB games... FARMVILLE!!! and CAFE WORLD!!! I am truly addicted and have learned that I should not be allowed to play any online game like WOW... it would be detrimental to my health... and my social life... haha...

ummm ok I need suggestions on what to write about next... hmmmm ohhh I have decided on my Halloween Costume... but it will be a secret and if I have told you it needs to remain a secret... OK!! But it is a very Sarah costume... hahaha everyone will laugh...

Ok this is it for me for now... leave me comments on topics you want me to write about

Thats all for me for now!!

Listen and Look...

Here is a few things I have been listening too and watching in the recent of days!






And The Simpson's "Apocolypse Cow" Episode Which I can't find now... LAME!!!